Because it has been multiple years since I have held a number on the scale as low as this one, I have begun to realize I have a bit of a skewed perception of my body. Even as the scale keeps decreasing and my clothes are getting smaller – I still make jokes and refer to myself as a “bigger” person.
I wonder when I will wake up in the morning, look in the mirror and think that the person staring back at me isn’t fat? And, if that never happens, does this become an obsession? Lead to an eating disorder? Or, have I clearly just been fixated with being overweight for so long that I am mentally certain I will never be “average” or dare I say “thin”?
I am pleased with my progress made in round two of Mamavation. For this, I am certain. As we are nearing the one-year birthday of my son Henry, I realized that I am almost 60 pounds down from the day I delivered him! 60 pounds! That is an amazing accomplishment in under a year! So, for that would make is just about 40 pounds since I applied for Mamavation near my 30th birthday!