Monday, February 15, 2010

Skewed Perception?

Because it has been multiple years since I have held a number on the scale as low as this one, I have begun to realize I have a bit of a skewed perception of my body. Even as the scale keeps decreasing and my clothes are getting smaller – I still make jokes and refer to myself as a “bigger” person.

I wonder when I will wake up in the morning, look in the mirror and think that the person staring back at me isn’t fat? And, if that never happens, does this become an obsession? Lead to an eating disorder? Or, have I clearly just been fixated with being overweight for so long that I am mentally certain I will never be “average” or dare I say “thin”?

I am pleased with my progress made in round two of Mamavation. For this, I am certain. As we are nearing the one-year birthday of my son Henry, I realized that I am almost 60 pounds down from the day I delivered him! 60 pounds! That is an amazing accomplishment in under a year! So, for that would make is just about 40 pounds since I applied for Mamavation near my 30th birthday!

How close am I to my ultimate goal? Less than 10 pounds. Right now, I am concentrating on one pound at a time. Taking each day at a time. Making each exercise and meal choice the right decision for me. Focusing on being fit and being healthy. And ultimately fighting off that skewed perception.

10 comments:

  1. Congrats Alyssa on your weight loss success. I was not part of Mamavation when you were an official mom but what I have seen of your campaign it was impressive. I am curious to see what Leah has to say about perception since you have come a long way (like she has). In all you do I hope your mental attitude about yourself in your process remains healthy.

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  2. Yeah! I am also less than 10 pounds from my ultimate goal (after losing almost 75 pounds after my son was born) so know I'm right here beside you taking it one pound at a time!

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  3. WOW Alyssa you are amazing and such a beautiful inspiration! WHAT a journey we are all on and I've enjoyed watching and listening to yours!! You know I heart you and am always here for you!! XOOXOXO PS still wanting to do our MOA meet up!!

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  4. You go girl! I think that we all deal with skewed body image but isn't it nice to have the mamavation gals behind you (myself included) reminding you that you look fabulous and have made amazing progress? Keep it up =)

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  5. WTG on the lbs lost! Truly great. Keep up the awesome work!

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  6. Awesome job on the loss! I definitely get what you mean about the perception...some days I look in the mirror and think I am no different than I was 45 lbs ago...and think if I will ever be satisfied.

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  7. I'm still shocked by what I see in pictures. I don't recognize myself. And it makes sense. I spent so many years seeing another size, that my brain hasn't wrapped its arms around it yet.

    The food fixation went away for me a while ago. But I did go through that too. When you are watching every bite. When you are losing you have to do that. You have to be focused or you won't meet your objective. So it's not a big deal. When you lose your weight, you will struggle with staying steady. Way different. I haven't gotten the hang of that yet, but when I do hopefully I can give you some advice. I'm just trying to stay in this certain pair of jeans. Sometimes it gets tight and then I gotta focus more. It's like that.

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  8. Only ten pounds to go, I can't imagine!! You really do need to realize how amazing you look. You ARE thin. You ARE amazing. You ARE an inspiration!

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  9. 20 pounds! No, 60 pounds! Amazing. You have worked hard for that new, fit body. It might take a little while of getting used to, but eventually you'll see it the way you should - as an awesome piece of work! :)

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  10. WOW!! 60 lbs in a year - that's amazing!! Since I'm not there yet, I don't have any advice to offer. But I would go buy a kicking outfit and have a photographer take some great pics. Then post them everywhere!! Hopefully it will sink in that THAT is YOU!

    Great job!

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